Day 7 | Take Two

Cut. Take Two. Action.

What was that all about? I am ashamed to admit that within days of starting my 90 days of singledom I reverted back to datingdom. I missed my ex and was talking to my sister about it and she said that she thought I was scared and had maybe talked myself out of a good thing. I apologized to my ex for perhaps overreacting and he asked if that meant we could try again. I told him it meant I was confused, but in the end we decided to give it another try. It lasted less than a week and maybe that's my punishment for giving up on my 90 days so quickly. In a way I don't feel bad for giving it another try. It helped me to know for sure that it wasn't going to work so I won't always wonder. I mentioned earlier that it's scary not knowing whether this 90 days is a good idea or just a waste of time and it helped me to see that it is a good idea - I need some time. I admit it has me wondering if 90 days is too much. Maybe I should try 30 days or 60 days and go from there. But I do need some time.

eHarmony sent me a bulk email invitation the morning after the relationship crashed & burned: cruel ironic joke or fortuitous nudge? Couldn’t the cupids have waited more than six hours to send me an invitation to “connect deeply with compatible matches”?

So, today "Take 2" begins. I thought about giving up the blog but then thought it would be better to pick myself up, dust myself off & carry on. One of my favorite things in life are second chances. (Lamentations 3:22-23: "Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.")